Just Hold On

Starting Weight: 202.2
Current Weight: 193.8
Weight Loss: 8.4

I know, I'm doing it again, not posting. Its hard to do this everyday. Yea, I know, I keep saying that too, haha. Well I'll just keep trying to do my best. Like with this weight loss, its hard. I bet its easy to sit there and read my blog. I bet one day, someone stumbled upon this blog, hoping to find motivation to lose weight. Like I did, about a year and a half ago. I was co-oping, and was around 180. This was after my first Herbal Magic attempt. I was on Jenny Craig, and it wasn't really working. I was searching for the best way to lose weight and I came across this blog. This women, I don't know where she lived again, probably in the states I think. Well she was on Weight Watches. I have tried Weight Watchers before. It was simple to follow really, just eat the amount of points per day. If you were good and went to the gym, you got more points. Also during the week you get this extra points that if you save up, you could splurge. I never really liked it because it didn't teach you about portion control or healthy eating habits.

Well back to my story, I started reading this blog, from the beginning. It must have been 2 years since this women had wrote in her blog. There was at least a years worth of blogging and I thought, awesome, I can read this women's blog about her story and get some real motivation. I started at the beginning, she seemed like me, just a little older tho. I got addicted to reading her blog. I must of spent a few days just reading her blog every moment I could. It was like a story. I read about her ups and downs. It was so motivating to see everyday how she would just keep losing weight. Then as I got on, the posts where getting farther in between. She would post about how she messed up here and there, but she would do better the next day. But the next post was a week later, and she posed about how she went up, but its ok, because she will do better tomorrow. It got to a point where she just stopped posting. And that was it. I was so disappointed. This women, who I didn't even know, gave me so much hope. She made me feel like I could do it too! But then, she failed.

I promised myself that when I take up this challenge I will start a blog, and I will keep it going until the end. So that someday, someone like me, can find this blog and read my story and get the motivation to do the same. This blog helps me, but I know how much it will help you.

So, today. Lets see, I haven't blogged since Thursday. I remember, I was 194.2. That was good of me. Well Friday I went up a little, I was 194.8. eekk. I told the girls at Herbal Magic "This weekend will be just as good as last!" Bunch of load of crap that was haha! I spent all of Saturday babying Thomas because he was sick. haha It was nice to spend the whole day with him though. I've been so busy with school lately, it was nice to have my Thomas time. I was alright with my food during the day, but at the end, I was just sick of it, I was craving and apple turnover! I convinced Tom to stop badgering me by making a bet. I bet that even if I had this apple turnover, I would still be at least in the 193's by Monday. He bet that I would go up. I said if I go up, then he can day whatever he wants about my food choices, but if I go down then he can't say a word. In my mind, I would be so good with my food on Sunday that I would win the bet.

Turns out, I was crap on Sunday. haha. I ate a second apple turnover, and a sausage at dinner. That was really the only bad thing, oh wait, a piece of apple pie. eekk. Well I drank a lot of water and tried really hard at lunch. Turns out! I am 193.8 so HA! take that Thomas! I know what I'm doing. See you don't need to cut out everything in your life. You just need to know when you need to buckle down after indulging a little bit.

Honestly though, I'll be lucky if I get through this week alive. I have mid terms this week and I am seriously already dying. Its quarter to 12 now and I've only just finished a report that is due tomorrow. I have been working all day since 9 this morning. I don't think I can do it again tomorrow. My food is defiantly going to suffer this week. I just hope I can hold onto this wagon as long as possible, before the proverbial horse decides to kick its hinge legs in my face.

Man I need to sleep. Why don't you wake me when this is all over.

S.