Rant

It Worked! Yesterday was so successful. :) It makes me so happy to make a plan and stick to it. I ate all the food I planned to eat, and even went to the gym!

I thought of making another plan today, since yesterday worked so well. But, I was very lazy! So instead, I made myself breakfast, went to piano, bought lunch, then continued to work on my assignment. I'm finished my assignment now, and I'm completely bored. I could do more homework, which I probably should, but I'm just feeling so down right now. I don't know what it is, probably just an off day, school is stressing me out, the fact that my summer is completely overtaken by school, and I can't even chill and relax with my friends and have a few drinks because of this stupid diet! .. Wait not diet, my new life. That's what it is, run by my school and my food. Ugh! I don't want it to be like this, I want to go to party's and drink, and I want to buy KFC and pig out! This is so stupid.

What would you pay to look the way you want? A few thousand dollars? Probably. Very occasionally eating yummy food? Maybe. Never getting drunk again? ... ehhhh. Why must it be so hard for someone like me to look like someone else. Naturally skinny people don't have to give up everything I do. What is it? My genus, my tendency to have bad luck?

Everyone needs challenges in there life. They make you a better person. The harder the challenge, the more you grow (or shrink hopefully). I just wish it didn't have to be this hard.

S.